So, it's really, really happening.  We are - as of Sept. 14th - a non-profit organization.  AND...it will take 8 months to file for our tax exempt status....so on May 15, 2010 we will be filing.  How can that really happen like that??!!  That's amazing. 

So, I'm really, really happy and of course, just a little bit sad.  Today, I heard the Elton John song on the radio - You'll Be in My Heart from the Tarzan movie - it's my song for Connor.  And here comes the tears....I still miss him so much that it breaks my heart over and over again.  I know time is supposed to heal all wounds and yes, in a way it does....well, it just moves you away from the pain, dulls it a bit but there are moments that it can hurt like it did the first day.  The grief, nine years later, can still take my breath away. 

So I'm happy that we have Connor's Books and look forward to all of the wonderful things we can do with it but it wouldn't exist if he were here.  I am always reminded of that. But I guess that's the way so many good things start out - out of the darkness comes light, comes hope.  Where would breast cancer be if Susan G. Komen had lived?

So yes, I'm so happy that we are finally a non-profit but so sad that I had to lose my son for it to happen.  Once again, a bit of sad/happy....I should be used to that by now.